Sunday, November 8, 2009

Move by FAITH

A child - hers a loud noise. She clings tightly to her mother because she knows where her safety presides.

You are an individual who cannot swim, so you put on a life jacket. You now have absolutely no fear about plummeting into the deep dark ocean.

You grab a bottle of water that says purified. Ah so refreshing.

You don't feel very well so you visit your local doctor. The diagnosis is irrelevant, but given the certificate on the wall and the recently prescribed medication you know that your ailment will cease.

Although you may not realize, you are constantly moving by faith. The child has faith that her mother will protect her. The non-swimmer has faith that the life jacket will prevail in the battle against the waves. The sick patient just knows the doctor will know what to do. Faith is how we operate - on a day to day basis. Mostly with out question. We are able to rely on what we find to be true, or proven. We see a certificate on the wall or a note that says purified and it is accepted as fact. So my question is this: Why do we have such a hard time putting our faith in God?

I must say this is a daily struggle for me as well. However I know this message is not just for me. I know that each day I am able to put my faith in material things, unreliable earthly things, and yet I still struggle with the simple idea of placing all my faith in God. I definitely have FAITH. I just know that I need to build it up to another level. A level which I can't even imagine at this point in my life. I need to know without a shadow of a doubt that all things are relative to God and he will carve out my path. I just have to have FAITH. ALL FAITH IN HIM. Nothing else. MY faith must be unrelenting, determined, steadfast and strong. This is the only way to help others in their quest for the same peace which comes with PURE FAITH.

So if this is a struggle for you to I leave you with this prayer:

Dear God,
Please help me to learn the FAITH which will leave me with no questions about leaning entirely on you. For you are my Rock, my life and the true path which I know I can follow. I just need extra strength today to be steady in my PURE FAITH for you.
In your name I pray! Amen!

Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

AMAZING DAY

I just had an amazing day - I can't tell you why exactly. Wait, yes I can. It is so interesting. I find that at times I am so oblivious to what goes on around me that I forget to do the little things that mean so much. It isn't because I don't want to (well sometimes it is), or because I can't, but mostly because I am busy with other aspects of life which cause me to miss these little things.

Today I had a day filled with family. It started with going to my grandma's for just regular visiting and watching my mom creatively paint a nest on a sideboard for my grandmother. Then a surprise visit from the neighbor down the street who turned into being just a blessing herself! As we sat laughing, joking and rolling on the floor about virtually anything that came up I suddenly found myself volunteering for a BUNKO game. So crazy, but I did. In the interim, mom and I ran over to my nephews' baseball game.

Now when I say RAN, please take me literally. Note nephews' is plural, I have two nephews and they played their games at precisely the same time, luckily in the same general vicinity. An hour and fifteen minutes of rooting for my favorite two tots (well one of them is hardly a tot any more), on TWO FIELDS. You can bet that I didn't want either of them to feel like I missed anything, so I went back and forth to make sure they knew I was watching and supporting them. Okay perhaps it was a little overkill, but I don't know how to do anything halfway. Oh and bleacher fans, you can stop looking at me now, don't be jealous that I am related to two all-stars. I am fine running back and forth, I live out of breath.


Then it was back to my grandmother's for the trek out to BUNKO. A precious ride with three characters that could have given the golden girls a run for there money. Then you had my mother and I attempting to decipher the conversation in between random bursts of laughter. So, BUNKO arrived. I can't say I did much damage but I was able to throw down the most BUNKOS which landed me a PUMPKIN CANDLE. Back off it is mine! :)

What made this day so great? I have to say that everyone I spent time with was so excited to have me around them, but what they didn't realize was that they were the blessings to me! It was selfish for me to steal there time like that - I received so much joy from today I can't even express it! Thank you mom for convincing me to head to Stafford for a day of FAMILY bonding that turned into a marathon of BLESSINGS!! I appreciate YOU - MY FAMILY, and everyone around me for being such major blessings in my life! I honestly do not know what I WOULD DO WITH OUT YOU!!! :)

Saturday, October 10, 2009

PRESUMPTIONS

My lesson this week lies mostly in presumptions. For some reason this word has been on the tip of my tongue. At many times in my own life I have found myself jumping to conclusions, or presuming something to be true when in actuality I have found an extreme difference once the results were in. It is hard, we have been taught to be smart, to learn from our experiences, or to make sure and get to the finish line first. I believe this why we are so quick to make these presumptions. Sometimes they are NECESSARY, my challenge to you, is to be discriminatory in your reproach. Make sure you don't get into a RUT of always making PRESUMPTIONS. You just might miss out.

Just some recent observations in this category: What is your first thought when I say the words in BOLD?

HOMELESS:
I was recently in Midtown Houston - where I was walking into a business appointment. Dressed in my suit and giddily working my way to the office building I found myself being screamed at by someone on the street. A woman, clearly homeless, very angry, directing this towards me - with spit, vile words and awful gestures. I immediately assumed her to be mentally disturbed, and perhaps she was. However, I was enlightened with the knowledge of a credence which just "relocated" these homeless individuals from the main downtown area to midtown - I am still trying to figure out how they are deciphering who is a bum and who isn't (if just by looks, WOW). Her anger was not really directed at me, but probably at the individuals who were so hostile with her just hours or days or months or years earlier. We can only do what we are taught. All I could think about was how can I help this woman? (I know this one is touchy)

STUTTERING:
It happens in instances - one assumes that an individual who has a speech impairment has difficulty communicating. This may your initial knee jerk reaction, but those that seek a deeper understanding may realize that this individual communicates more KNOWLEDGE than most given their simple experience. Think about it, if I had a speech impairment, I have probably been through a lot in my lifetime, I have SO MUCH TO SHARE. In actually, this barrier may only be the devils ploy to keep you from the astonishing truth.

BEAUTIFUL WOMEN:
I have decided beautiful women feel invisible. You are so dazzled by their exterior that you forget to know their heart. It is a natural human need to feel heard and be seen beyond what lies on your exterior. No one should assume a beautiful woman's life is easy simply because she has that on her side. In fact, I believe it creates more challenges when it comes to credibility - you have to work even harder just to prove that you haven't floated on your looks.

WEALTH:
Rich people often feel very alone. It is assumed that they have it all - money solves everything. Unfortunately, money can't by happiness. We have all heard this before, now why can't we just let it sink in...

Just thought I would jot a few thoughts down for the week while they were fresh on my mind. I hope this helps us all to take a second look, or look at something from an other's shoes. They just might not fit as well as you think.

GOD BLESS!

Friday, October 2, 2009

Tired

So I woke up this morning feeling tired. I know what you all are thinking, don't we all wake up tired? Well - not in the literal sense. I woke up emotional and mentally tired. Not from all the work I have been doing lately or all the information that I have been cramming into my brain (which continues to astonish me given the capacity for knowledge). Nope none of these elements were the culprit, I felt TIRED of GIVING so MUCH

I feel ashamed to even admit that I feel this way but it is what it is. I always try to be positive, make jokes, lift others up, look on the bright side - and then I have these random days when I wake up, TIRED. It is not that I want to always be positive, I find this is my fulfilling need in life and usually comes naturally - to be sure and have an essentially joyful impact. Infact it is probably very selfish because I gain so much from giving! I just sometimes hit a WALL when I WAKE up feeling TIRED.

I haven't found a medicinal cure yet which helps me combat these dreary days and I am still searching for clues as to why I have them in the first place. I consistently think about the fact that God never gets TIRED of forgiving me, or TIRED of loving me, or TIRED of blessing me but still I have trouble. I get TIRED of always being the one to make the joke, smile first, or look on the bright side.

Then I realized this morning, sometimes I just want someone to be my smile, my joke or be my positive impact, perhaps this is what I crave. So it just brings me back full circle - I better continue with my positive ways despite my inclination to have "woken up on the wrong side of the bed this morning". I know someone else MUST feel TIRED to, and I can only hope to be their SMILE, JOKE or LIGHT for the day.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Today

For some reason I have been having quotes pop up in my head in the last few minutes, perhaps they are relative - or for someone out there:

Take each day moment by moment, step by step, breath by breath and know that with each new moment you are given another opportunity to change.

Have you ever wondered why you are able to find certain flaws in others over and over? Take a look at yourself - you may find some similarities...

Take a chance at life, it constantly takes chances on you.

I am consistently inconsistent.

Let yourself be changed - stop guarding your flaws.

God really wants to help, you just have to stop getting in the way.

If we would stop covering our eyes to reality, we might be able to engage our ears to the truth.

Forgive and forget (I have a really hard time with this).

Sometimes things do not happen to you for your sake, but for those around you. It is your job to be the pillar of strength throughout the trial. I need this from you. Don't let me down. - GOD

You are affecting people and you don't even know it - for goodness sake make it positive.

You never know what some one's day, year or life has been like. Try to be the positive memory, despite the energy you get back.

Okay I am done ranting for now....

Sunday, August 23, 2009

I know

Sometimes I find myself dwelling on the negative aspects of life. I find this especially pressing when I feel an a recent endeavor has failed, and I can't seem to take my mind off of it. It is during these times that I have to challenge myself to remain positive. I find that God then reminds me of all the wonderful things I have accomplished, to encourage me to strive forward. For worry, anciety, fear and depression are not of God. Today I challenge the same from you - make a list and reference it whenever you feel down. I am going to open up about a few things that God has enabled my success on. All of these different experiences have made me stronger and help me remain positive when I feel something has failed.

These are either things that I have accomplished, am doing, or I feel I have made great strides in thse areas of my life:

Stopped biting my nails
Lost 35 pounds
Overcame Dyslexsia high school valedictorian and graduate Cumm Laude
Learned to play piano at 18
Learned to LOVE my freckles
Published my Blog
Slowing following God's direction in my life
Stopped cracking my knuckles
Am more positive
Starting to develop a positive self image
Implemented a healthy eating and exercising regime
Attending Al Anon
Learned to accept others for who they are
Waiting on God
Learned to read music at 18
Started writing again
Spokesperson for the American Heart Association
Learning to Trust

I can be proud of all of these little things - this helps me to press forward in times of doubt. I know you have things you have accomplished to that you don't even think about. If you can't come up with a list, have a friend create one for you. You are more valued than you know!

God has a plan for your life - I know you can push through this TIME!

For ENCOURAGEMENT

From God's Minute I felt I needed to share this -

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. (Ps 139:1)
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. (Psalm 139:2)
I am familiar with all your ways. (Psalm 139:3)
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. (Matthew 10:29-30)
For you were made in my image. (Genesis 1:27)
In me you live and move and have your being. For you are my offspring. (Acts 17:28)
I knew you even before you were conceived. (Jeremiah 1:4-5)
I chose you when I planned creation. (Ephesians 1:11-12)
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. (Psalm 139:15-16)
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. (Acts 17:26)
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14)
I knit you together in your mother's womb. (Psalm 139:13)
And brought you forth on the day you were born. (Psalm 71:6)
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me.(John 8:41-44)
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. (I John 4:16)
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. (I John 3:1)
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. (I John 3:7)
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. (Matthew 7:11)
For I am the perfect Father. (Matthew 5:48)
Every good gift you receive comes from my hand. (James 1:17)
For I am your provider and I meet your needs. (Matthew 6:31-33)
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.(Jeremiah 29:11)
Because I love you with an everlasting love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. (Psalm 139:17-18)
And I rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17)
I will never stop doing good to you. (Jeremiah 32:40)
For you are my treasured possession. (Exodus 19:5)
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.(Jeremiah 32:41)
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. (Jeremiah 33:3)
For if you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. (Deuteronomy 4:29)
So, Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4)
For it is I who gave you those desires. (Philippians 2:13)
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. (Ephesians 3:20)
For I am your greatest encourager. (2 Thessalonians 2:16-17)
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.(2 Corinthians 1:3-4)When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. (Psalm 34:18)
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. (Isaiah 40:11)
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. And I will take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.(Revelation 21:3-4)
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.(John 17:23)
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. (John 17:26)
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. (2 Corinthians 5;18-19)
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.(I John 4:10)
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. (Romans 8:31-32)
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. (I John 2:23)
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. (Romans 8:38-29)
When it's time for you to Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. (Luke 15:7)
I have always been your Father, and will always be your Father. (Ephesians 3:14-15)
My question is....Will you be my child? (John 1:12-13)
I am waiting for you. (Luke 15:11-32)

Be encouraged! God LOVES YOU!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

ABIDING SUCCESS

Today at lunch I decided to read my bible to get a little insight. Interestingly enough, this is the passage I was reading:

"Then you will understand the fear of the Lord, and find the knowledge of God. For the Lord gives wisdom; From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." - PROVERBS 2:Check Spelling5-6

When reading the translated notes I noticed when a person seeks "sound wisdom" (can be translated "abiding success" or "victory") he/she will find it in the fear of the Lord or the knowledge of God. Take all those definitions and string them together to grasp this statement -
Abiding success is found through the knowledge of God. I believe this is a comforting statement.

So, just as I was finding comfort in words that I didn't quite understand at the time (it all culminated just now) I received a phone call. Ironically, there was a church who needed office coffee (the service I sell). An opportunity appeared - and it wasn't even asked for. Just as I am seeking the "sound wisdom" (abiding success) of God by reading my bible, I receive a phone call for a sale. I wish everything was that obvious to me - seek God and he will show you just how he will work for your abiding success.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Routine

Phone alarm goes off, my day begins. I get on the computer to check on any overnight emails that may have trailed in. Get in the shower, take a moment to scrub off the sleepy feeling. Get ready for work. Scurry around from APPT to APPT. In between I will stop to work on paperwork, correspondence, etc. Conclude the work day, go to yoga. This is the outline of my day.

Have you ever noticed that anything which interrupts your natural daily (established) pattern throws you off a bit. Sometimes the interruption can be positive but we constantly resist changing our daily routine. The reason I mention this relies simply on the fact that these routines are definitely a great way to establish a pattern, but do not allow you to be spontaneous when other situations arise. At times you will find yourself in a box with no doors, living in a constant state of duress. The fact is, life changes constantly, and those who are able to adapt to the changes with out being frazzled are far more capable of expanding their experiences and perhaps success. I believe individuals fall into a self deprecating routine which ultimately doesn't allow room for encouraging changes.

The next time you find yourself in a tizzy, figure out what fell out of your established pattern and take a deep breath. Realize that your ability to go with the flow at times is essential to your stress free survival. Stop worrying about how your plan for the day, your life, your relationship, proceeded off track, perhaps GOD had something else in mind. :)

"Then you will walk safely in your way; And your foot will not stumble." PROVERBS 3:23

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Evening Sushi

It is quite insteresting how I have this obsession with sushi. I think I could probably have sushi every day of the week. It has become as common to me as a sandwich is to a preschooler. I can't help it, Sushi is the the absolute only food that I can eat and feel no remorse about at all. Paired back with sashimi it is the perfect combination of protein and carbs (assuming brown rice is requested for the rolls). I mean just think about it, protein, vegetables, brown rice and seaweed all wrapped into a nice neat editable roll. The perfect LIGHT lunch or dinner that leaves you feeling just as skinny as when you started. Only problem, when you start to enter into all the fancy rolls - and you must eventually. These are wher you might find yourself racking up the calories without realizing it. The fabulous sauces, tempura addition and all the other fancy ways you can alter the plan jane sushi. But hey just one roll of this type won't bust your belt. :)

Friday, July 31, 2009

Irony Knocks

I find it interesting how companies have so many standards that they expect their customers to uphold, but yet when it comes down to it - do not want to abide by themselves. Let me fill you in on a situation I ran into today, well actually many times but this is just fresh on my mind.

I am in sales, and I want to say that I have met with a variety of companies who consistently surprise me by the way they conduct business with their vendors. For example, COMPANY X today, here I am talking to the potential client about products and services. The contact on the account is clearly interested in what I have to offer. We discuss in detail the product, service, etc. and then the question comes up. I bet you can guess it. Nope not that one. Not may I have your business - the potential prospect asks me, 'who long is your service agreement?'. I reply with my typical 3 year term agreement. Immediately, I am given the cold shoulder and the response 'we won't sign an agreement for your service'. I find this very interesting considering that COMPANY X is in the service industry themselves and works strictly from contracts.

Hmmm. Well then how do you expect me to guarantee your price for any length of time? Do you realize that by not signing an agreement this is basically allowing your service provider the freedom to change pricing at any time without notification? Not real smart mister buyer.

Let me just tell you that in that moment I wanted to let the potential client know how idiotic they were in their so called reasoning, but I just had to sit there and listen. Lovely, so you keep making your clients sign for their services and hang your vendors contractually out to dry. I wonder how your clients would feel if they knew you ran this type of operation. Irony knocks, unintelligent answers.

Needless to say, I doubt this account will go anywhere - don't get me wrong I can sign a month to month agreement, but imagine what would happen every time our pricing fluctuated. Listen folks, I understand the hesitation with the economy and signing a contract, but the fact is that a contract guarantees your pricing for the length of the term. Figure it out - how do think oil companies make so much money.